Thursday, May 27, 2010

One Month

The time has gone by so slowly and so quickly at the same time. I'm not ready. I'm not ready to speed ahead. School starts in less than one week and I have intense anxiety just thinking about it. Some ask why don't I quit or take a break but I ask and do what instead? Be depressed, be unproductive, just sit around the house? What else can I do but keep going and reach the goals we've set for our family. It's just hard and some days I feel crazy.

This week was hard. i've thought about the one month mark everyday like it means something. not really what's the difference one day or one month. Simo and I have fought several times about nothing. I'm just having a hard time adjusting.

Ali is doing so much better. Actually he is great hamdullah. I go back to Dr. Maarouf next Friday. I'm not looking forward to this. I don't want her to know how bad I'm actually doing. I don't know why but I don't but I can't hide it either.