Saturday, August 7, 2010

I've had social block. I compare it to writers block. I just stepped out of my social life for a while. I'm trying to come back. School is starting soon. I've volunteered at my old job a bit. It was nice to see everyone. I've started training for my new job. I took on some volunteer jobs. So I'm keeping myself busy. I like it that way.

Two of my friends have had baby boys. I met the first one last week. He was just so precious. I go tomorrow to meet Mustafa. I am very excited. I really like to be around small babies but they make me nervous at the same time. It's been a while since I've cared for a tiny baby.

I'm eating and sleeping again. Sleeping less but still sleeping and with less aide. i'm looking forward to the future. InshAllah next summer I will try to get pregnant again. I honestly can't wait. The other day a cashier at Wal-Mart asked me if Ali was my only one and I said yes. I instantly regretted not acknowledging my two other sons, Yahya and Kamil.

Kamil's head stone has been ordered and is on the way. I'll post a pick once it's there. Ramadan begins in 3 days. I need it. I need the spiritual refresher that Ramadan brings. I need the community and I need Allah's forgiveness and Mercy.

I have finally enabled comments on my blog. I don't know what I was doing wrong before but whatever it's fixed now.