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So I went on Monday for the chromosome test. I thought we would do another ultrasound but we didn't. Dr. Stanley told me there was no reason to continue sseign him as a specialist. He said I could go back to Dr. Maarouf. She has kindly agreed to deliver Kamil. This will be easier because Pepper my friend and nurse who delivered Yahya will be there. We'll be a baptist so we'll also have the same bereavement lady Barb.

I'm starting to get over the depression. At first I really didn't know how to keep going but I did. Now it's not so hard. I have to admit I feel like a walking dead person. I know I'm not going to die but part of me is. He is so strong right now though. He moves and kicks ALL the time. I don't remeber Ali moving this much. I think it's a reminder that he is still alive he's not gone yet.

I still haven't figured out how to answer the question " How are you doing?" I mean fine is the first thing that comes to my head but fine is not honest but then I don't want to keep crying everytime I turn the corner at work. I have received soo many responses from my Facebook thread. I really appreciate the emails. I have cried while reading so many of them. I really appreciate everyone's support and genuine care.